shjno, mapol-e

drank tea with four cups of sugar in it and thought of him. It was great to love him, it still is. He was bald and selfish, I am too. Drank tea and wished it was the sea. Sat beside the window, it was spring. Thought of him and his sweet selfishness, there was nothing wrong with it. Didn't care much, there had been many things to remember, I did- I did. Felt fine, drinking tea, four cups of sugar in it. I was going to get wasted - I didn't. Thought of him and his two black'n eyes, his widow heart. Loved him, really did. Never had him for the way I needed back then, I'm selfish. Looked at him far, so far and felt so fine, nothing was wrong. Didn't care, didn't care what had been or never had. Felt so insecure, so great. Drinking tea, I was going to get so wasted but didn't have time, had to think, I had to think. Sorry, I never knew what love was, I still don't .